que sera sera
oh where do i begin?
went upstate thursday and my first few days were great. I stayed with a couple that's so in love its borderlines disgusting sometimes. hahha. but its beautiful. They've been in a long distance relationship for 1yr and 8 months and they are finally able to be together. Can't blame them for being so love dovey after that i guess :) Even though it had me wishing that the pillow i slept with in my arms would magically transform into someone else. *dont mind me i think i took a dose of sappy love medicine this weekend*
This past weekend I think i discovered how strong the human mind is. We are capable of processing so many emotions at once and I can't help but be in awe of it. My dad is in the hospital due to a spleen bursting. It only happens in car crashes or plane crashes- all of which hasn't happened to him. If it weren't for three decisions I would've been attending a funeral this weekend. I truly believe there are signs and we must listen to the voice inside of us b/c it can very well save our lives. When the news was broken to me upstate I just wanted a nice hug. A hug that envelops you; one in which words aren't necessary, because all of it is right there in that embrace.
As the weekend continued a flurry of thoughts came through the revolving door of my mind, and I have to say I was very greatful to have miss E there. It made a world of difference. The woman's too brilliant. Not only that but she was there during one of the more important events this weekend- my first camping experience haha. Now that was fun. :)
Two zucchini breads later and I was on my way to nyc. Dad's doing much better, he was the one making me smile during the visit. There's so many lessons this weekend that i've learned, in addition to learning about what I deserve as well as what I should and should not put up with.
So tonight I sort my thoughts (because even 8+ hrs of travel didn't do it).
i'm still waiting for that hug.
posted by Star grl @ 11:15 PM
1 Comments:
Woman, I like to think of myself as one of your best friends* and as such I would like to tell you the following:
The mind is capable of producing many different emotions, but the heart is only able to handle so many at a time.
You are an amazing Woman. You are beautiful, talented, gifted in so many ways, and a wonderful person all around. You are capable of so much love, and devotion, and even if you doubt it, optimism.
But, we all have our own limits, and I know that you are going to do what's best for you in the long run.
Just know this: Trust your judgement and that loud voice, or feeling in side that makes you Know exactly what you should do. It's there for a reason.
I love you!
*I'm not only speaking as your friend but also as a person who has seen you grow and change and become the person that you are today. I wouldn't have you any other way.
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