19 yrs old

Do you know what its like
For a girl to grow up
Hearing her mother’s heart beat
Only to be there one day when it stops

Blood pulsating
To its nerve endings
She feels a cardiac arrest
Straight from her moms breast
To her very chest

Blood pumped through her mother’s veins
Giving this girl the hope and strength
To remain the same

Having just discovered
The curves of her body
And the opportunities life held
Her mother’s heart withheld
Love

19 years old is when her mother’s soul
Grew old
Wilting away
Leaving behind seeds of yesterday
Her mother’s body remained
No longer the same
For her vacant eyes
Only spoke lies
And this girl tried
To see inside
How her mothers heart
Had managed to be torn apart
Leaving only her external part
The same
And her daughter’s internal part in pain

Do you know what its like
For a girl to grow up
Hearing her mother’s heart beat
Only to be there one day when it stops

Her mother no longer saw her
While every day her child would try to stir
An emotional piece of her soul
Trying her best to maintain her control
All the while wishing her mother had stopped
And just used some form of birth control

See this 19 yr old
Has been sold
To the fact that she’s never gonna get her mama back
And now she stands on the brink of success
Wondering if all this mess
Was why her mother regressed

This pain has remained
Within her
Lying dormant inside her
For she still lives life with her mother every day
Praying her heart will one day stray
To only convey
Its original affection
Bourne from her own introspection

Tears of joy bourn form the womb
Convey sadness throughout the room
Salty tears drop to the ocean
Forming puddles of her heart stopped in motion

Eyes cast down
This girl begins to drown
Into a sea of black
Sold to the fact that she’s never gonna get her momma back